My dear ocean...
Our
association began ever since my birth and it grew thicker as almost
three decades flew by. Though you mean much more than a childhood friend to me,
I was never enchanted with your presence as I was in the recent past and
especially today. Just being with you was so meditative and a complete
experience. I was just wondering why I was mesmerised so much today and why not
over so many years…
Tracing
the major milestones of our friendship, I think I am truly reconnecting to you
today after a gap of several years. Though you were at a motorable
distance from my home, we would meet mostly on holidays. We would wait for days
together for the sea bath. And ancestral home is situated at the banks of your
backwaters! I just remember how hard we would try to explain the connection
between the sea and the backwater to guests just to boast that we live by the
seaside.
But
those were the years when I failed to fathom your vastness, depth and expanse…
as a child, I was unmindful of your vastness, wary of your depth and unaware of
your expanse…For the past couple of years, it was just like too much of sea and
I started avoiding the seashores for holiday outings…
All
of a sudden when I visited my native place Devgad, I felt we have much deeper
connection. I wanted my one-and-a-half-year-old daughter to be a sea-friend. I
started visiting you every morning all through my stay there and found out
unfound meanings and yes, those findings were profound.
I
also started listing unvisited beaches nearby my village and yes, there were a
plenty of them. We may separate you by locations but eventually, you are one.
During
the recent visits, I would enjoy sand walk or even early morning yoga sessions
but just looking at you was a meditation in itself. I can sit next to you for
unlimited number hours and immerse myself in the waves as they emerged and
merged with you. Some days you would be totally quiet while one day, when it
was likely to rain and you were aggressive. The water had reached the small
pathway that took us to you. The fort in the sand I made with my daughter, too,
was swept away. I just sat by your side and yes, realised you hadn’t lost your
rhythm in aggression too…
Your
aggression and calmness both represent life as it is. True, you were sending a
warning note that you always cannot dance to the man’s tune when human beings
have been so much inhuman and unnatural with nature…
The
next day, you were calm again. I knew my daughter was looking for the fort in
the sand. She could be little upset but that was a great lesson. We made it
with new conviction and realisation that it is bound to be washed away.
My
dear ocean, I had sweated it out many times before but with you, I know what it
is to perspire, with your depth and expanse, I know better what it is to
aspire…
The
footprints in the sand are deeper, to be washed away with you and seashore is a
clean slate all over again…in life there is nothing concrete, nothing permanent…
rhythm is constant in spite of all ups and downs. Calmness at the bottom sea is
eternal and all the upheaval is just on the surface.
My
dear ocean, I understand you better with every visit and try to better myself
leaving behind the footprints in the sand to be washed away by waves…after all,
nothing is etched in stone except your impressions carved in the deep
recesses of mind…
Yours,
Kanchan
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